Aug 27, 2007
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Hi James Family, just came to tell you I'm praying for you!
Aug 24, 2007
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I feel like God had us meet for a reason!!! I loved seeing your beautiful chlidren and i feel blessed to have seen Leah's beautiful journey. She truly is an angel with beautiful angel eyes and she looks alot like her mommy. I am praying for you and I know that God will give you clear direction, that is my prayer. I pray that He might reveal it to you in a dream, or a word from someone, but that you would undoubtedly( i think that is a word) know where you will be going. Be blessed and know that Leah is loved yet by another person who was so blessed to meet her mommy at an ice cream place in Citrus County Florida. My life has been completely touched by her testimony. Many prayers to you, Kylie and Mr. James!!!!!!
Aug 22, 2007
Location: canton
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Hi Karen
Just popping in to let you know that I have been thinking about Leah a lot these past few days. I hope that she is sending some signs your way! Give me a call when you get a chance so we can reschedule that wine date.
Stephanie
Aug 21, 2007
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Always praying....
Aug 19, 2007
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Dear James Family,
Today, our Bible Study made cards for children in the hospital! It felt like it was something that God had called my to do. Leah was kind of like my inspiration.
Aug 19, 2007
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I just talked to my mom, and I might be able to go to the Christmas Fundraiser. But it's hard to tell, since we live so far away. Anyway, my prayers are with you everyday. I pray that you will find comfort and peace in God, and that Leah will continue to send signs to you, Mr. James and Kylie. I love you all very much and I really hope to see you soon.
Aug 15, 2007
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This is just a song that I wrote when I found out that Leah went to heaven. I made it from her perspective, but I didn't know her, so some might be a little wrong. I am praying for you all, and Kylie, I wish you a great 6th grade year!
HAPPY END
SONG AND LYRICS BY KATIE MCCARTHY
I love the way that your eyes would shine
and look, lovingly into mine.
I love the way that you would always say,
how much you love me.
I know you are wondering why...
CHORUS 1
But I know how to fly, time to spread my golden wings,
oh, I now know why cause I've spread my golden wings, and I'm
Smiling down on you from heaven, and I know we'll have a happy end.
And on the day that you come home
I'll greet you like no other.
Huggin' you, kissin' you, cause we're reunited with each other.
And we will understand why,
CHORUS 2
I'll show you how to fly, Help you spread your golden wings
oh, soaring through the sky with our golden wings, and we'll
Smile up at Him in Heaven, and that, yes , that is our happy end.
BRIDGE
I can Fly,
The pain is gone,
My heart is happy,
Forever happy cuz
CHORUS 1 3x
Aug 15, 2007
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Dear Karen,
I thought that you might like to read this from the "Miles Levin" family updates at carepages.com:
Miles Levin is the 18 year old who is dying of a rare pediatric cancer and is in his last hours as I write this. His story has been featured in the Detroit News and on CNN. This is a hearwrenching note from his mother. I send you this because I know that this is exactly what you must have felt and probably still do much of the time and it's only something that another mother who's experienced this can understand:
| August 14, 2007 at 11:08 PM EDT | The mom here....again.
First, a small thing.....many have reported having dreams about Miles....whatever that means.
I know that once Miles passes, the focus will be on him, as it should be. I have one final post from the mothers' perspective, while you can still hear me. (I used the plural because, to some extent, this applies to all mothers of children with cancer.)
The title is: YOU HAVE NO IDEA....
You have no idea how fatigued I am, way down to the bone. I don't think there's a word in our vocabulary that fully captures or conveys my level of exhaustion. Day in and day out, night in and night out, worrying, doing, balancing, pretending, carrying concern in every cell of my body, anticipating, arranging, considering, planning, advocating, protecting, hoping, wondering, AKA loving.
You have no idea how far behind I am with so many realms of life. The piles are moved from here to there, periodically thinned but never handled. There are items at repair shops that have never been picked up and probably have gone out of business. The items that need to go to a repair shop fill my garage. Including my body. Life at my house is constant triage: regular review of exactly what has to be done, i.e. can be deferred no longer. The endless "to-do" list has not included LEISURE for 26 months. Leisure is a concept that is as foreign as cancer was before June of '05.
You have no idea how much of my life has been sacrificed in the service of fighting this tireless monster. I have given up my career; I have given up my social life; I have given up physical fitness; Fun has been so given up, it doesn't even qualify as something on the list of things that have been given up; I have given up my health; I have given up any hobbies; I have given up any illusions of peace and security. I have given up the idea that just because I'm a nice and kind person, the worst thing that could happen to a mother won't happen to me.
You have no idea how difficult it is to explain to others who are not in this boat what happens to your life. That's because, unless it's happened to you, you have no idea how consuming cancer treatment can be and is, especially in a family. The way you can tell that others don't understand is when, out of the goodness of their hearts, they suggest getting a massage or a manicure.
Soon, I'll have time for a massage AND a manicure, but no desire. Soon, my life can be mistaken for the Grand Canyon. Soon, I'll wonder where my life is and what I've been doing every single day for 26 months. I'll have to re-invent myself. One thing I know: it will look very different from the self I was before June 4, 2005.
Despite all of that, I wouldn't have done one thing differently. And that's still true despite the ending of the story.
P.S. I have one final YOU HAVE NO IDEA....
You have no idea how many tears I've cried.
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Aug 13, 2007
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Hello, Karen.
I have been thinking about you and little Leah and praying that someday you will have some peace of heart. I continue to hope that God will eventually bring comfort to you and your family.
I love you,
Cynthia
Aug 13, 2007
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I've been thinking of you and praying for you and Phil and Kylie. I pray for strength for you and your family and that all of the good things you are doing for others, with this dreadful disease, will help you with your daily struggle. God bless you!
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